Pressure, Pressure

When the weight of your world collapses from under your knees

Don't come crawling towards me

You knocked everything from under your feet

I just had the pleasure of watching you fall

It's not what I wanted, but it's what you've always deserved

Oh my how the tables have turned

I put you in the same place before and still prevailed

I'm in the same hole I put you in and I have yet to fail

Don't come crawling towards me

You knocked everything from under your feet

You choose to listen to the wind and not what's concrete

Poor girl faltering under the weight of my eyes

Can you not handle the pressure

If not then this will never do

How have you survived this long, how did I get so far with you

I wasn't aiming at you, so why jump the gun

When this is all over I'll let you know

So calm and confident, hence why I'm in control

Can you not handle the pressure

If not well never work this out

Don't crawl towards me

The weight of your own world brought you to your knees

Collapsing, don't crawl to me

And no I don't make things hard

I'm just watching, laughing

If I were to believe in you my faith would soon decompose to, you're the parasite in me. The reason why it's so damn hard to breathe.

What has this girl done to me? I'm so afraid to love. I can't even love my own family.

Why waste your time looking for happiness? When you can be content for the moment and let happiness find you.

I Love(d) You

I love, but with no reason.
What feeling could be so strong for my heart to commit this treason?
I want, I need, I demand an answer.
This emptiness is eating through me like cancer.
This voided feeling, these meaningless words..
I love you, You love me,
In my mind i know we are NEVER going to be.
This nothingness, this "love", so barren and relentless.
Hmm..
A new thought occured to me, but how is this true?
Not love that a feel, but hatred for you.
Piece by piece, this feeling is coming to end its not emptiness i feel,
But anger, saddness, and regret.
For years this has been plaguing my head
It's not love that is keeping me hear, but the need to see you dead.
This is not affection, not amity, not love that I bear,
But the longing to see you hang from your hair.
Hate, I never knew I could feel it.
Hate, I never knew I could feel this good.
Now I understand what the writings on my arms mean.
Love was not written on my limbs, hate and the pain you deserve
I inflicted upon myself to accomodate.
It's not love, its hate.

I See You

LIAR!
How could I confuse an angel for a whore
From this well you will draw no more
LIES
I should have seen this coming
Beautiful beginnings have tragic endings
I thought she was good
I could have sworn
I thought she was good
I'm just a prospector digging for fools gold
You hide it so well
Thick layers of make up
hide it so well
I fell so hard or was I pushed over the ledge?
Everytime you came around your inner whore
Ducked under the hedge
How could this have happened
I swore not again
This will be the last time
She wakes up
Her last time in bed
Early morning sunshine
and
A gun to your head.

Omnipitent

Genesis

The beginning

Where everything lay waste

With these two hands I build and I create

A World

A planet

Where My voice reigns supreme

I am the bringer of life

The taker of breath

Nothing moves unless I speak

A Universe where the surpressed run free

or

A realm in which everyone bows unto me

I can turn flowers into trees

or

Make the strongest of men fall to their knees

The creator, I am

The blood of a king courses through me

Divine right

Dubed unto thee

The destroyer

The cleanser of the weak

With one hand I can wreak

Havok, Pain

and

break the boldest of men

I came before

The land

the sky

the mountains

and more.

I give and I take

I create then let crumble

Mercy is not a feeling bestowed upon I

But the joy in seeing my leige cry

All look to me

for I am the

Creator

Destroyer

Deity

to

humanity

Cars Kill Careers

This could be the last time you ever see me.
Can you recognize me?
My body is trembling, I can't feel anything
I can't feel shit
My world is spinning I can't breathe
Blulks of alloy and glass are encompassing me
Someone save me
Anyone come save me
Am I alive?
These eyes see their demise
I can't remember
This could have been the last time you see me
Save me..
The street lights are comforting
My body is aching
My skin is lacerated
My heart is speeding up
Someone save me
Gashes in my legs prevent my movement
I'm lifeless
I lay here lifeless
My animated body is pulled out of the debris
I hope I'm alive
This could have been the last time you ever see me..

Bigger, Badder, Naive

I find myself writting in reference to you constantly
Trying to recapture the feelings you placed in me
With that I've constructed a piece worth reading
A story on how pithatic you are
How you're pretty green eyes display all the lies you had the pleasure giving me
I look at all the times i fell for it
How naive of me to think people change
But I have you to stand as proof that such a statement is true
You're the perfect example of a broken record
You repeat yourself everytime
But now I've seen the obvious and It's become clearly evident
I've always been the bigger man
Now I laugh at how superior you seemed
When it all comes down to it, you're just as low as me
Even though I was dead set on making you suffer
I've always been the bigger man
And you know it to
I'll always be the bigger man

For Karleigh Alexander's 16th Birthday

Sixteen candles on October's twenty first day
I hope your eyes shine like the sun in may
Show your diamond smile, you should be happy dear
Sixteen candles for your sixteenth year

Close your eyes and wish for anything you desire
Then blow out all sixteen tiny fires
I hope everything you wished for comes true
Sixteen unlit candles tally another year for you

Follow the Leader

Everything I dream is in black and white
Everything but this little red kite
Lifeless and flightless it lays there still
Even though the wind rages with an undying will.

Why don't you fly little red kite?
Soar above the clouds during the day or at night
I don't see why you won't let the breeze take you high
Over the trees, oceans, and through the sky.

I don't understand why you just lay around
Why would you want to be on the ground?
The little red kite said not to question him and his ways,
But then he explained why on the grass he lays.

"I was always told not to follow, but to lead
So until I fly on my own I won't move from here
No matter what the costs are pain, sweat, or tears
I won't follow I will lead, I won't move an Inch till I succeed"

How It Started.

My world is ripping at the seams
My mistakes finally caught up it seems
I've lost all hope for resolution
Running was the worst solution

Inside I'm a worn-out doll
Guilt became the burden I haul
Atlas and I stand parallel
My decisions will condemn me to hell

Pull this trigger and hollow out my head
It doesn't matter since I'm already dead
I've always taken the easy way out
Now I’m walking the south bound route

But a silver goddess changed my views
With a new way to see life through
New eyes and a better state of mind
No longer weaved in guilt, I'm unwind

She told me to live free and never regret
Where I have been I’ll never forget
Thes words I live by will circulate forever
No care, ever

No Idea.

It's funny how you can have all the love in the world, yet still be lonely as hell
Everyone thinking you're fine, they didn't see when you fell
Pushing through life with your will drained like a well
So why change things when your mask has yet to fail
Fooling these people, but I'm the one chasing my tail
Pursuing blurry dreams with no detail
Running after them with no time to inhale
It gets harder when my mistakes hail on me
What's the point in forgiveness when no person can hear my plea
And the inside is something you will never see
Always looking towards the post, no worries about the pre
All I ever do is want what one would need
To pull my life out of this struggle
But I'm stuck in a huddle with the only people you can count on
Me, myself, and I will always be there even when everyones gone
Someone please checkmate me I don't want to be a pawn
Hoping to finally see a light, I'll embrace the dawn

Think It.

The truth hurts, but it'll hurt worse as a surprise

There's an irony to life we never realize

Our first breath is when we begin to die

We're born to die

Another step towards death with each day passing us by

Oh please, please don't cry

Wipe down the tears that pour from your eyes

Move on because time does, don't waste something you can't buy

Just keep living for the future and all you glorify

Your well being depends on the effort that you apply

And knowing the fine line between attempting and saying you'll try

Believe few for they may forsake you, but faith is there for you to rely

There's a plan for everything we cannot deny

Destiny is made of dreams not the world's lies.