I Love(d) You

I love, but with no reason.
What feeling could be so strong for my heart to commit this treason?
I want, I need, I demand an answer.
This emptiness is eating through me like cancer.
This voided feeling, these meaningless words..
I love you, You love me,
In my mind i know we are NEVER going to be.
This nothingness, this "love", so barren and relentless.
Hmm..
A new thought occured to me, but how is this true?
Not love that a feel, but hatred for you.
Piece by piece, this feeling is coming to end its not emptiness i feel,
But anger, saddness, and regret.
For years this has been plaguing my head
It's not love that is keeping me hear, but the need to see you dead.
This is not affection, not amity, not love that I bear,
But the longing to see you hang from your hair.
Hate, I never knew I could feel it.
Hate, I never knew I could feel this good.
Now I understand what the writings on my arms mean.
Love was not written on my limbs, hate and the pain you deserve
I inflicted upon myself to accomodate.
It's not love, its hate.